Just wow.

I am completely blown away by this. Because it is so beautiful. And so accurate.

And I am so glad I did leave.

Thank you.

 

Brilliant and creative. I've never been there, and honestly, this makes me not want to try to go there, because the pain is so real. Yet there is the joy, as well, and you have written of that.

 

You don't "choose" to go there. You are compelled.
It's worth it.

 

You're probably going to get a lot of this, but... Wow. As boldn'brazen said, Just Wow.

Truly, I'm speechless.

 

I should be as lucky as to apply my physics degree in such a practical application.

What you speak of is both joyous and sad at the same time. Remember the joy.

 

Dear O,

Reading this, I felt just how difficult it probably was to write, and it's that which made it the hardest to read. And impossible not to comment on, despite a long silence.

No doubt, this is incredible and beautiful and it has me right by the spherical balls of my math/physics propensity too. (You had me at hello, the quantum entanglement just did me in. Yeah, I adore you.)

Um, don't know what else to say. Though I'm reminded once again and again and again of something I wanted to write you about.

All my love,
Learn

 

Anonymous wrote, "You don't 'choose' to go there. You are compelled."

This may very well be so. For me, however, the power of this post resides in its articulation of agency. One does choose, knowing, and one confronts what follows axiomatically. One is then responsible for what happens, the beauty and the pain alike.

 

Perfect, not least the motto of the Academy

 

This is truly beautiful. You do choose, knowing full well that there will be pleasure and pain.

 

There you go postulating again! I feel the need to expostulate about your petrifucent postulations. I have so many theorums I just don't know what to do with them all. Last night I put them on and wore them as a dress as a matter of fact. I even had a few in my hair for effect.

I'd love to tell you all about it but I've just accidently set my breasts on fire. Damn these nuclear thingies! Call 911!

 

BnB,

Thank you. I'm really glad you found it accurate; I'm also glad it spoke to you. Thank you for commenting and finding it beautiful--geometry is beautiful, it's cold and pure and certain. No less the geometry of love.

I don't know your blog yet, but i will be reading it now.

Best,
O

 

Anon,

You are right.

It is worth it, absolutely, and it is like a compulsion.

Actually, I feel about it just as I do graduate school--you wouldn't want to tell someone to go, if they need to go they will. Best to know the risks, and even kowing them--is it worth it? Yes, yes.

more below, in what i will say to monique. Thank you for commenting, and thank you for being someone who gets it.

best wishes,
O

 

Tea,

Thank you sweetheart. I've been unable to comment on you--but I always am reading. I will write you soon.

Much love
O

 

Plano,

Thank you! and i am so glad to have someone (apart from learn) with a physics background here, i am thinking of doing a series, and physics will be one of them. I will rely on you in part to help me get it right.

And you are right: joy. Yes.

best,
O

 

learn, my lovely,

I wrote you. I'm thinking of you.

I'm reminded again and again of why we are friends.

I am so glad you read this and i am so glad you liked it; I had you in mind just as i do now--

all my love,
O

 

Beloved swain,

I knew you would see my secret thought.

as always.

O

 

monique,
thank you as always for commenting, and for leaving such a comment, one which (again) gives me more credit than I deserve--

I said anon was right, but you are also. For some reason, your comments and anon's made me think of grad school. Like graduate school, it is not a course I would happily or easily or lightly recommend to someone I cared for. Better to know the risks. ;)

Nonetheless, intellectual passion like any other is a compulsion, not a choice--Do we know in advance when we open a book, that we should not? that too is like a key turning in a lock, sometimes. You wake up and you're in grad school. I am being somewhat facetious about the choice/compulsion issue: I am also most serious. It is beyond one's control.

But you do see my meaning. Choice and agency are involved--and while love feels like a compulsion, don't we also have choice? There is some moment, often seen only in retrospect, where we know we have a choice, to hold on or let go.

I was aware before I let go, I did so mindfully--I continue also mindfully. I knew the postulates and the axioms in advance. It is worth it, there is joy. I judge it worth it--for me. But geometry is after all a first-order theory: it can make statements about all circles but not the *set* of all circles.

I have given the first-order theory for the Other, and it applies to me. But not to the set.

I *do* choose, and did choose, and do so mindfully always. But anon is also right: do we always know, from our first fatal interview, all that may ensue? I did, actually--we don't always. I did not only fall but also leapt. Still do, and you see that.

You are right: joy.


Love
O

 

AA Girl,

it means a great deal to me that you'd like this, and that you would comment on it.

what is wrong with the world, that pleasure and pain have to be mixed so? I know you know this

Love
O

 

I was never a grade A mathematics student, and I achieved the notable distinction of gaining an Unclassified result in Physics (presumably I spelt my name wrong), so it might be fair to say that geometry is not my strongest skill. Nevertheless, I couldn't help but read this post without coming up with my own version of the theory.

First postulate (revised version); For any two points in a plane, a line may (hopefully) be drawn connecting them - but first it will have to pass through metal, wood, concrete, buildings, walls, air, human hearts, human failings, hang-ups, paranoia, diseased minds and cold, cold hands.

Yes, I'm still bitter, cynical and twisted. Delightfully.

 

and remember ... you have to live in the plane in order to see the line ... Where does that place you ? Exactly, in a different dimension ... Is conscious a different dimension. Is your conscious a different dimension than mine ... ? A beautiful post, spelling the laws of sex, as geometry spells the laws of space ... Thanks

 

You write with such grace, wit, elegance and insight. And yes, with a bit of tragic sadness. But then, you know all that.

 

Super-O: You know that I understand, although I wish that I didn't. Not that exact paramenters but the final outcome.

Hug for you.

-p

 

You have so much strength. I'm in awe.